Seeking Obscurity

well, we have internet again, so i guess that means i have to write on this thing. I'm kind of hoping that this blog gets lost in cyberspace. just another blog in the millions (are there over a million blogs?).

i've been catching up on the show Community, which has not disappointed yet. It's creative, and quirky. I watched an episode from a new show called Portlandia. I think it has potential. Some moments hit, others missed, but overall I liked it.

I had today off from work, which is going well. Mostly everyone there is cool, customers and co-workers.

I still don't know what I want to do with my life though. One could say I'm in a state of limbo. I'm hoping something the picture will clear up, but I'm not sure if it will, or what I can do to see clearly. It is an obscure photograph. My life is like an obscure photograph. This is one of the first sites that pops up on google search for the term "obscure photography." A lot of the post-childhood photographs I've been in have that quality, of me hiding from the camera.

I don't mind it. I find obscurity to be an aesthetically pleasing concept. Dragging a Dead Deer Up a Hill is a favorite album of mine. I love that the music is hidden behind a layer of fuzz and distortion. I love the album cover as well. I also read earlier that a new Grouper album is in the works. A double album, so to speak. I like the idea behind it. Liz Harris explains it better than I:

'Describing the pair of albums, Harris went on: "Dream Loss is a collection of older songs, mostly written before a hard time. Alien Observer, for the most part, is made of songs recorded after that time. Each has a song that belongs thematically on the other, a seam stitching them together. Both albums... explore otherness. Being an other to one's own self, to other humans; ghosts and aliens, both literal and metaphorical; and other worlds to escape to (beneath the water, in the sky). Thinking about people who have died...

The process of making these albums reacquainted me with what I want to explore in music: friction, exploration of something large and outside of me, describing and traveling to intangible objects and places, unseen movements and connections between people and spaces. Songs that move on their own, that have an autonomous monstrous quality, songs from another world."'

That's pretty deep. Dragging a Dead Deer Up a Hill sounded deep. Water-deep.

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I went away, but then came back. We watched Rosemary's Baby, which is one of the best horror movies I've seen.

Now I'm really hoping this blog gets lost in obscurity. I don't know why though. I guess that means more searching for the deeper truth, that which lies beneath the surface. Things are not always as they seam. That's strange, I just noticed I did that. I spaced out for a bit, then I realized I spelled "seem" "seam."

I still don't know if the period is before or after the quotation marks.

So I'm going to mess around with the look of the page. I'll try to make it more obscure.

-LJL