comedy

it can always make a person with an existential crisis smile. most of the time.

how did i get to this point anyways? something not long ago made me realize that my life was lacking. and from there, I just kind of drifted.

No, actually it was even before that, because I remember watching an episode of family guy where Brian and Stewie are stuck in a bank vault and Brian reveals that his life is meaningless too, and I remember thinking that I feel that way too.

I wonder if it was that little thought that led me here. That's as far back as I can remember, because I have no transcendent meaning, and haven't had one for a long time (maybe I've never had one). But could it be that this infantile cartoon got me to concentrate on meaninglessness?

I'm not feeling particularly down right now. That feeling of down-ness comes suddenly at times, and from there my concentration goes to the meaninglessness.

that's as far as I can carry this post.

Maybe this is just a downtime, and soon there will be an upswing.

-Leo