29 December 2008

"The Northern Cold"

It's starting to hit me. The fact that I have no friends here, that this is a strange place. At first I was excited, and I still kind of am, but sitting in my room I realize that there is no one to keep me company. My mom and sister are still here, but not the same company I had in Norman. I was going to write "no one I can have deep philosophical conversations with," but I guess I never really had that. Actually there were a select few.
I guess I'll just begin a search for like-minded people here. I don't really know where to start though. I'm not in school anymore, so I can't meet friends through that. I don't have a job yet to make friends through that either.
It doesn't feel too bad though. I just have no one to hang out with. Sitting in here, looking out the window does inspire thought though. Introspection. Thoughts like how one's immediate vision shapes his or her worldview. Example: I'm looking out the window. Does that make me feel alienated, and can that alienation lead to nihilistic thoughts? Maybe. The window is what separates me from the rest of the world. I don't feel I am a part of it. And why is it that nihilism is what came to mind? I don't feel like destroying the world or anything, so why nihilism? hmm...
Maybe it's the music I'm listening to. Currently, it's Woods of Ypres- Woods III, The Deepest Roots and the Darkest Blues.

Anyways, I found a couple of jobs I'd like to apply for.

-Leo

(I wrote this at 5 pm or so, and forgot about it. That's why it's sloppy and ends abruptly.)

here's some pics of my remodeled room:

24 December 2008

Pictures

Day One

Day Two

Day Three

23 December 2008

Day Three

Man, I always wake up earlier than I want, and I can't go back to sleep! I stayed the night in another Days Inn, though this one isn't as nice as the first one I stayed in. The lady at the counter said there was free wireless, but it doesn't even work! Oh well, I just needed a place to sleep. I wonder how far I am from the Appalachian Mountains... Or maybe I'm already around them. The area is pretty hilly. Maybe I missed them since I drove until 10 pm, and just couldn't see them because of the dark. I reckon I'll arrive in NJ later today, hopefully early enough to take pictures.
AND MY TEETH! I've had a lot of coffee (actually about 3-4 cups), but I don't have any toothpaste, nor do these Inns provide any! I'm dying for a good brushing, argh! Eff it, I'll just buy a WHOLE tube of toothpaste and brush my teeth at a gas station if I have to.
Time to try to sleep for 40 more minutes (it's 7:17 now).

-Leo

(7:20)- Can't go back to sleep, eff it, I'll just wake up now!

Day Three, Part 2

I made it today!
I'm sitting in my room as we speak! It's beautiful! I can see New York City from here. I'm not going to be staying here forever, but it'd be cool to. I wouldn't mind living in this place. It's like a three story house, and my mom and her husband are renting the second floor and the third floor, so I have a room on the third floor. I'll take a picture sometime soon. My room is bigger than the one I had. It'd be cool to just live here, but I don't like the thought of living with my mom. Not that I hate her or anything, it's more of an independence thing.
Tomorrow is Christmas eve, so I'm assuming most businesses will be closed, and then the day after will be Christmas day, so I guess I'll have to wait until Friday to start looking for a job. In the meantime I guess I can get all my papers in order, like my school loan stuff, and figure out my next move; prioritize basically. My inflatable bed is not too shabby either, it's bigger than I thought, so I can kind of sit on it like a small chair. I don't know if I should go ahead and get things for my room, and unload EVERYTHING, or if I should wait and see how the job situation goes first. Because I'd like to get out of here as soon as possible, because I feel like I'm mooching or something.
When I first got to NJ I visited a park, and it had snowed already, so that was pretty cool. I played black metal most of the time driving this last day, not satanic black metal, more like nature-based black metal. Stuff like Drudkh, Woods of Ypres, Wolves in the Throne Room. Agalloch would have been a good addition, but I didn't bring my cds with me, only burned ones. I also left my painting of Van Gogh's starry night back at my dad's place.
The trip here wasn't as boring as I thought it was. I thought I was going to be bored out of my mind, but I wasn't. I was probably bored for 3-5 hours out of the entire trip. I'm guessing it was because of the frequent breaks, the camera I got for christmas (which I frequently utilized), the good music and singing along to it, and the beautiful scenery and pit stops I made to explore. A lot of trees, hills, and mountains. I don't know the difference actually. I think I saw mountains, either that or REALLY large hills. Nothing like Mt. Everest or anything, no single mountain that towered above the rest. I wonder if I'll be able to sleep with the car noise outside. Every once in a while I hear a siren, but from a distance. I don't think it'll bother me.
When I got to Newark, I got lost. There were no signs on highway 78 that pointed to West Orange, so I just went to Newark, hoping that there would be signs that point me to the right direction, but there wasn't any. Instead, I saw a lot of traffic, and had to call my mom's husband, and he helped me out. He met me at a place in Newark and I followed him home. Man, the traffic was pretty big, at times it felt as if I wasn't even making any progress because there were so many cars just waiting for the light. The streets were pretty confusing too, I guess I just need to get used to them first. I think I'm going to use public transportation a lot here. Using the car seems a little slow... Well i guess a bus would be just as slow. A bike would come in handy, too bad I left mine in Norman. I could weave through all the traffic like that, though it would be hard not to get hit, and plus the snow wouldn't make good riding conditions. Maybe in the summer when I get used to the place. For now, I'll give the public transportation a chance.
So right now I guess I'll review the photos and see which ones are good so I can upload them.

-Leo

Day 2, part 2

In virginia now. This trip is taking longer than I thought. I thought it was just going to be 24 hours, but this is my 25th I believe, and I'm not even close. Maybe it's the detours I've taken. But would they really take away THAT much?
I took some more cool pictures though.

22 December 2008

Day Two

7:25 am. Time to wake up, hit the shower, then get back on the road.

Or maybe I'll sleep until 9, and then hit the road at 10...

I don't know where I am, close to Nashville.

hmm...

-Leo

Day One, part 3

Well, I arrived at a Days Inn. I decided to take a break for the night. It's now 11:06, so hopefully I'll get a good night's rest for tomorrow early in the morning. It's pretty nice here. And there's internet, so I can post this stuff now. Too bad I can't upload all the photos I've taken so far, gotta wait until I get to NJ.

Ok, I'm going to try to sleep now. I'm almost to Nashville, about 80 miles away.

-Leo

Day 1, Part 2

Well, I just arrived in Arkansas. I'm at the Welcome Center right now.
It's 3:35 right now, but like I said, by the time I get to an internet place I will already have left. Looks like it took 5 hours and 35 minutes to arrive here. I went through Tulsa, which was a little confusing, I got lost for about 30-45 minutes, trying to find the highway to Muskogee. At around 2 or 2:30, I was nearing the Okla./Ark. limits. I spotted a sign that said Sequoia's Cabin, next exit. So I took the exit, thinking it wasn't too far off. It was a pretty good distance though, all in all I spent about 45 minutes maybe, or an hour, don't know, not only getting there, but looking around. It was a very beautiful place. I took my new camera, only to find out that the batteries were getting low! I didn't take as many pictures as I would have liked to, but I got some. I'll post them when I get to NJ.
I guess I'll get back on the road now, and waste less time.

-Leo

Day One

Well, the day is finally here. My bags are packed, and I'm ready to hit the road. I left Norman yesterday, after saying goodbye to a lot of people. I left feeling good, but also sad. No need to repeat what has already been said though. On Friday, I had a last dinner at Pepe Delgados and hung out with my close friends one last time. The day before that I had a lunch with all of my crossroads buds. So that made me feel happy, like I had left on a good note.
Saturday, I woke up later than I wanted. Originally I planned on waking up at 8 am, so that way I could get to the bank on time in Ponca City before they closed at noon, and I would close my savings account there since I wouldn't be using it anymore. But instead, I woke up at 9, and it took me about an hour to put all the stuff in my car and get ready. I didn't even have time to tidy up the house, so now my brother has to do that. F**k the deposit is what I say. They never fixed the flooding problem, AND there are plants growing out of the corner of the wall. They changed managers every month, it seemed like, so we could never get anything done. No matter how many times we went to them, nothing got done. Sure, they were cheap, and close to the school, and there was free internet, but apartment number 11 was inexcusable. Keys West Apartments that is. Don't get apartment 11 everyone. They can clean the mess if they want.
So I left Norman at around 10:15, and as I got closer and closer to Ponca City, the time was getting nearer to 12 pm. I sped going about 85 towards the end. When finally I reached Ponca, I had about 10-15 minutes to get to the bank which was on the other side of town. So there I am, driving impatiently, behind slow drivers. I had about four minutes left, and I was about 1 mile away. Suddenly, and I'm driving down prospect, the railroad crossing begins to flash, and the stops come down! I'm just thinking "WHAT?" Of all the times, it had to be now! The cars ahead of me begin to slow down, so I have to also. I never made it on time. I got to the bank at 12:10, and they had already closed all the drive-up lanes.
LUCKILY, later that day, I went to my aunts house to say bye to her and my uncle. My dad met me there after he got off work at 2:30, and gave me some money. I asked what it was for, and he replied that 2 days ago he had closed my bank account. I was thinking "whathe, you could do that?" He said that the bank people were dumb and don't check that much into the name, and he and I share the same first name, just different middle names. So my account is closed, and I got my money after all. The morning stress was for naught.
At my aunts house, she cooked some lunch and we ate. It was a good feeling moment, as I have not seen them for a long time, and also back then I never talked that much. But now after I got some new experiences at college, I had stuff to talk about and the conversations didn't feel so one-sided. That's a moment I'll remember for a long time. We talked about driving in the weather, braceros, non-Mexican Latin Americans and their different Spanish accents, other peoples who look Mexican, and I showed them my macbook, which my aunt and dad helped pay for, and they were amazed. My dad and uncle liked the... I forgot the exact name, but it's the new world baseball championships, where different countries play against each other, I showed them the website and schedule for next year. I showed them Google Earth; they really liked that. They were amazed that they could see their hometown, and pictures of it even though it was a very small town (Mazapil, Zacatecas). We looked at my brother and my sister's birthplace (Moses Lake, and Monterrey), we couldn't find mine though, the exact hospital, that is. We looked at Matamoros, a stadium in Torreon, and I showed them where I lived in Norman. All in all, we had a good time, and I'm glad I saw them before I moved. Later on my cousin showed up, and his parents, and I had a long talk with my cousin, and then said bye. We're going to vacation in Mexico next year (hopefully, if I can find a job by then and have enough money by then).
After that, I went to my sister's and her boyfriend's place, and we exchanged Christmas gifts. I got a digital camera! Now I can document the trip in photo form! I'm excited about that, thanks Ixchel (if you read this). We got some dinner after that at a Mexican restaurant, and that was pretty good. After playing with her pets for a little bit, and our extended goodbyes, I finally went to my dad's house to sleep. So I slept, and now I'm ready to rearrange some stuff in my car, hopefully I can have more room in there, we'll see. It's about 8 am now.
Originally, I planned on taking the northern route, through Missouri, Illinois, Ohio, Pennsylvania, etc... But the weather has not been so good up there. I was still planning on going, but my mom and dad would rather me take another route. Now I'm going through I-40, which goes through Arkansas,and some other states, and passes through... drumroll please... the Appalachian Mountains! So I'm excited about seeing some mountains and sights along the way. My dad recommended another route yesterday evening, after talking to a friend about the snow around those areas. The other route would have me go around the mountains, and it would take some more time. I think I'll take the second route. I yearn for adventure. This route takes 24 hours, as opposed to the northern route which takes 22. Two hour difference, not bad.

Alright, I'm going to go get ready. By the way, my dad has no internet connection, so I have to wait until I get to a place with wifi. So by the time this gets posted, I'll be on the road already. Time to get out of bed and hit the road. I'll take pictures too, like I said.

-Leo

16 December 2008

Jogging, thai, mars, books, wtf?

Wow, I went jogging yesterday, and it felt good. Today I woke up feeling good. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, jogging out in 12 degree weather. One just has to take the proper precautions; wear clothing that will keep your whole body warm. I had two pairs of socks on, since body heat can be lost through the feet. Also I put on a t-shirt, a hoodie over that, and a jacket over that, and that was enough to keep me warm. I need to get something for my legs though, the sweatpants I wore were not enough, because my legs felt a bit numb afterwards. Nothing too serious, they just took a while to warm up again. I covered my ears with a headband type thing, and my mouth and nose with a piece of cloth (a pillowcase to be exact). I didn't get shin splints this time, thankfully. Those suck. Oh and I wore gloves.

So one can still run in the cold, with the proper clothing. And as for stretching, you want to make sure you stretch well. You don't want to start running and halfway through your legs will feel sore because you didn't stretch well. Stretch the arms, legs (all parts of the legs, calves, shins, ankles, etc...), and warm up by doing jumping jacks or something. Here's an informational article:
http://running.about.com/od/safetyweather/tp/coldweathersafety.htm
another link:
http://www.runningplanet.com/training/dressing-for-cold-weather-running.html

My lungs didn't even hurt or anything afterwards.
So, after a good short jog, I came home and stretched, and had trouble sleeping, and didn't sleep until 4 in the morning or so.

Today I woke up around 11 feeling good. Just ate some thai food, at Thai Cum Coon.
I also got this cool screensaver with zombies, and it just shows zombies taking over whatever the current screen is.

As you probably gathered, I don't have much to talk about right now, which is why I'm writing about insignificant things. It's just that I got this program called MarsEdit, and it lets you update your blog without opening up an internet browser; that is, it works as one of your computer's own programs. I guess one would still need internet in order to post things online. But if I don't have internet, I guess I can write and then wait until I go somewhere with internet and then use the program to post whatever I write. It's just nice having what I need as a computer program, as it makes everything that much tidier.

I also got some christmas (dare I say, "holiday") presents early this year. For some reason my brother decided to give them to me early. The theme this year; BOOKS! I've gotten:
The Return of Depression Economics and the Crisis of 2008 by Paul Krugman- This is the one I'm currently reading. The book originally came out in 1999, I believe. This is just an updated version, with some new parts about the economic crisis we are facing today. Also talks about other crises other countries have faced recently, like Mexico, Argentina, and some Asian countries, what we can learn from these, and what we can do in today's crisis.
The Wealth of Nations by Adam Smith- Wow, I didn't know the book would be this big! At a whopping 1,211 pages (including appendices), this book is basically a defense free trade (aka capitalism). This one should keep me busy for a while. I hope it's not TOO technical, and that it's written for the layman.
The Basic Writings of John Stuart Mill, an anthology of works by J.S. Mill. One of my favorite philosophers, this guy. There are three works in this; On Liberty (also in the process of reading), The Subjection of Women, and Utilitarianism. I really like Mill's ideas, especially the ever relevant ideas of utility, freedom, and happiness.

And my brother also wanted his gift early, so I gave it too him. I don't think I spent nearly as much money on his as he did on mine. I got him a vinyl copy of one of his favorite albums, King Crimson's In the Court of the Crimson King. When I get rich, IF I get rich, I'll buy him a vinyl record player, so he can play them on. I won't have much money for everyone else, but the holidays are not about the money, right? It's about giving love, and receiving "love."

And this:


5 Days until I take the ring into the fires of Mount Doom, or New Jersey
-Jr

11 December 2008

My Name is Leo

There's a lot of things I want to say right now. I'll start off with this.

Yesterday (actually at 3am today) I said bye to a good friend of mine. I'm not going to name any names, but let's just call him Karma. It will probably be the last time I see him for a long time, maybe I'll never see him again. But I'd like to think that somewhere down the road, we're both working good jobs, and we'll visit each other once in a while. Also this past week, I said bye to another guy I worked with, he was a pastor at a baptist church. I'll have those memories of the 2 or 3 times I attended his church, and he was a nice fellow. He is one that I have a feeling I might not see again, but who knows, the future is not certain. I guess over the next week I'll be saying "bye" or "keep in touch" many times (since it is also the end of the semester at OU, and many are leaving) to some that I may never see, and others who will cross my path later on down the road. All I can think about the absurdity of the situation is that it's a part of life. What a way to sum up an indescribable feeling; "it's part of life." It is filled with goodbyes, and most of the time there is nothing we can do about it. A strange analogy came up in my head last night. It's like in books, where towards the beginning or middle of the story you meet a character, and the protagonist befriends him or her, and after they part ways, the character is never again mentioned in the story. I wonder what happens to those characters, but that's as far as we can go; wondering what happened to them. Well, I guess these days we do have the internet to keep in touch with people, things like facebook or myspace.

I've also decided that in New Jersey I'm going to go by Leo. Ever since I got to OU, since I had to fill out everything with my full name, I just put Leo as the first name, and that is when people started calling me Leo. Might not seem like a big deal to some, but before that I went by Junior for my whole life. So then I had some people calling me Leo, and others calling me Junior, which at times led me to stutter when introducing myself. "What's your name?" "J..Le... Leo, I guess." So now I have some friends that call me Leo, and others that call me Junior. I don't expect anyone who called me Junior before to call me Leo from now on, but just so they won't be confused when other people refer to me as Leo, I'm writing this; to set the record straight. Leo isn't even my complete first name, it's Leobardo, but Leo will do for now.

Paying these school loan bills, while adding more stress to my life, doesn't make my life miserable all together. Maybe that's because I haven't seen the worst of it yet, because I'll have a hard time finding a job and everything. But I'm sure that with a strong foundation, which I believe I have, they won't do much. Plus, there's always a way to make money, whether it be a crappy job, or selling dope (I'm not advocating this by the way), or gambling (I don't advocate this). So maybe I'll be working a crappy job two months from now, but at the end of the day I'll be content with what I have, while striving to get something better. Baby steps, man, baby steps. I guess moving would be the first step. Or maybe I already took the first step, in deciding to go to college. Sometimes it seems like a step backwards, but we'll see if it pays off. But I digress. What I want to say is that with a firm mental/emotional foundation, anyone can get through crappy times (e.g. paying bills, being jobless, saying goodbyes).

On the agenda for tomorrow (Friday): getting two of my car tires fixed, talk to the bank about closing accounts (I don't think that Bank of the West would have banks in the North East), putting the new bills in order and accounting, and maybe separating what I'm going to leave and what I'm going to take.

And here's what I've been listening to:
The Fiery Furnaces- Widow City, this is a good experimental pop/indie rock album that would appeal to fans of start/stop time signatures, sometimes heavy sometimes light pop beats, and experimenting with violins, pianos, and drum solos. I like it because of the catchy tunes.
Enslaved- Vertebrae, I can't stop listening to this album. Adding elements of post rock, black metal, Tool-ish and Pink Floyd-ish vibes, Enslaved have produced one of the years best metal albums. The lyrics are also great. Watch their video for their single, The Watcher.
King Crimson- In the Court of the Crimson King, after Luis introduced me to them, I've been curious to check out their whole discography. Great album, I'm not sure what else to say about it.
Devendra Bahnart- Smokey Rolls Down Thunder Canyon, and Cripple Crow
Grouper- Dragging a Dead Deer Up a Hill (another one of the year's best)
The Mahavishnu Orchestra- The Inner Mounting Flame (recommended for fans of The Mars Volta, that's how I found out about them)
Morte Macabre- Symphonic Holocaust, this album is for fans of the old school proggy, mellotron laden music. They do some covers of horror movie songs on this. Also, in Morte Macabre are Nicklas Barker and Peter Nordins of Anekdoten (another band you should check out if you like prog rock, they started out as a King Crimson cover band!)

Well, it's 5:50, and it takes me 10 minutes to walk to work, meaning I have to go.

-Jr