Transubstantation is another cool word for it.
Well, as of now, my future plans include moving out of state. Plans always change though, and it might very well turn out that I don't move after all. But here is how I'm thinking it will go down. My lease for these apartments ends in December (I think), so that is when I would be moving. My mom offered me a place to stay with her in West Orange, New Jersey, which is about 5 miles northwest of Newark, and 15 miles west of New York City. She said I can stay with her until I find a job and apartment, so I'd be staying there for free, and free food, just working until I get settled there. I plan on just taking whatever job opportunity I can get at first, and then working my way into something in education.
Eventually I would like to live in or around the New York City area, and work there too. So maybe I'll try to find a teaching job there after I get settled in New Jersey. I haven't planned that far ahead yet though. Ever since I visited NYC, I fell in love with it, so now the opportunity has arisen for me to get one step closer. If it doesn't work out, I can either move back to Norman, or keep on truckin in the northeast US (somewhere). But I don't plan on it not working out, I always find a way to make it through (well, most of the time). I found a potential roomate (for 2010 though, he's in the army, good friend o'mine), so we'll see how that goes.
As far as Norman, OK goes, I like it here a lot. It kind of makes me sad that just as I'm getting settled here, now that I've graduated and had a chance to hang out with friends more, and go out more, and let go, and gotten used to the city, now I'm getting ready to move. It feels pretty secure here, and comfortable. But this is one opportunity I can't turn down. First of all, I looked for jobs online within the education field in the NYC area, and found a ton. Second, that's been a dream of mine, to live in the big apple, for a while. And third, who knows what kind of opportunites await me there (as Frank Sinatra sang, "If I can make it there, I can make it anywhere"), I could get settled in, and provide a temporary house if my brother or friends ever decide to move there.
Or it could go in the completely opposite direction. I could move there, and find that no jobs hire me. My mom would move away, and ask me to come with her, but out of stubbornness, I refuse and stay there, only to live in the streets. I'd eventually turn into a homeless beggar. In desperation, I'd begin down a spiraling road of drug addiction, prostitution, and gambling. I would turn to criminal activity, like stealing or something, and get arrested eventually. Ending up in a maximum security prison, and not able to take the violence and abuse there,till one day I would be found dead in a cell. "It was plain to see that your life was lost
You was cold and your body swung back and forth
But now your eyes sing the sad sad song
Of how you lived so fast and died so young"
Hopefully it won't turn out like that. I read up a little about New Jersey today, and it doesn't seem that bad. Maybe if I don't find anything in NYC, I'll just stay somewhere in New Jersey. Really, the whole Northeast just opened up to me with this moving thing. For now though, I'm just working to save up a little money, pay off any bills that I have here, and trying to have some fun when I can.
I've been going out a lot more than I used to when I was in school. Oh yeah, that's another thing, I got a C in my History of Mexico class, so I'm pretty sure I graduated. I'm just waiting for some sort of confirmation, or the bachelor's degree, whichever comes first (I'm actually not sure what I'm supposed to do next). It would be a B.A. in Philosophy, with a minor in Latin American Studies. So since I graduated, I've been to a couple of get togethers with friends. I went to Critical Mass here in Norman, that was fun. I've had the opportunity to read some stuff I've been meaning to read, right now I'm finishing up Latin American Philosophy for the 21st Century. It's only been like three weeks since I've graduated, so I'm thinking the rest of this year is going to be a good year. It started off kind of crappy, by July and August I was thinking the year was going to suck bad. I was stressed during the Spring semester, with that epistemology class (I'll eventually catch up to speed on that stuff), I couldn't even finish the History of Mexico class, so I took an incomplete. I went to the hospital and it ended up costing me a bunch of money, which put me behind a little in bills, and credit card which now I have to pay off. So right now, I'm a bit behind on that, but I'm making progress slowly but surely. I have to pay my brother back, he covered the apartment bills for the month of September. So now that I'm just working I'll have a chance to catch up some. Oh yeah, and my car broke down, so that's just more fuel to the fire. But it looks like it's starting to sprinkle, and some big clouds are rolling in, so this fire is seeing its final moments. The rest of the year looks good though; I've graduated, a Charlie Kaufman movie is coming out later, so is a Woody Allen one, Opeth is going to be in Dallas in October, and I'll be moving.
I'm fairly optimistic for now (even after watching a depressing video about the police state at the RNC convention in St. Paul).
-Jr
